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September 25, 2007
Visions of the future
Everyone talks about what it would be like to be able to see the future, or to know what's going to happen next. But is it really possible? I'm not sure entirely, but it seems to make sense that there is some ultimately way to know what's coming next.
When I was younger, I would occasionally have a very vivid and specific dream --- many times these dreams later came true. I discounted this a lot based on deja vu, or something not being specific enough, but eventually, it came together into some very specific dreams where I realized that I had indeed seen something that was going to happen before it did.
Fast-forward to college. The clearest incident of this ever was when I found out that someone specific was going to forget that it was my birthday. It came in the shower in the form of a voice in my head - a very distinct one, and it also said something distinct about the conversation. Less than 6 hours later, it went down exactly as described. Since then, that voice has been accurate.... shockingly so. It doesn't always give me a complete foreknowledge, but I learned of betrayals, I learned of things happening that I couldn't have known about, and I have avoided some huge pitfalls that were right in front of me.
What is that voice? I'm not entirely sure. Could it be my brain reacting to the environment, but perceiving it in such a way that it can feel the flow of events? Perhaps. Could it be a hallucination, something I'm imagining or maybe my instinct, a gut feel? Could it be a higher power? I think I've never made any mistake to say that I believe in God - though my beliefs there have evolved strongly over the years.
Personally, at this point in my life, I do believe it is God. It's not a voice I can just call upon, or have any real way of getting an answer, but it has never, ever failed, and it always has seemed to show up at key moments, steering me towards something.
I'm sure some of you will think I'm batshit crazy. And honestly, I sort of do myself. But it works for me. And I've been relying on this voice for nearly 5 1/2 years now... it seems to be working for me.
Just some very interesting thoughts. I already know what you're going to leave in the comments, so go ahead, but I really do already know. (joking... haha... maybe.)
-Will
Don't need money, don't need fame
Posted by badwillhunting at September 25, 2007 12:30 AM